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In winter of 2008, my oldest daughter and I decided to make a trip to Nauvoo. It was a long way to go for a weekend trip, but we had very sweet experiences in the short time available.

What we could not have anticipated when planning the trip two months earlier was that on Saturday, February 2 we would visit Carthage jail where Joseph Smith was killed, drive through the countryside traversed by the martyred prophet’s body, then arrive at the Nauvoo visitor’s center in time to watch the televised funeral procession of our own prophet, Gordon B. Hinckley, making its way through the streets of Salt Lake City.

We joined more than a hundred senior missionaries who serve in Nauvoo, standing as one when President Hinckley’s casket began its short journey from the parking structure into the conference center he commissioned. We watched as President Monson stood at the pulpit made from the wood of President Hinckley’s tree. We cried with the family and smiled with Church leaders who paid their tributes.

After the funeral, we drove to the graves of Joseph and Hyrum Smith and contemplated what it might have meant to the early Saints to lose their prophet in June of 1844, a young and vibrant leader who had galvanized a people to build a Zion city, a holy temple, and a body of scriptures for a new dispensation. And we contemplated what it was like for us to lose our prophet, equally vibrant, equally if not as personally loved. A prophet who had galvanized us to build temples, education, and stakes of Zion for a new generation.

I don’t know how the Saints handled their loss. I can’t begin to imagine how devastated they must have been. They lacked clear patterns for succession. Their lives, too, were threatened. The journey Joseph’s death sent them toward was long and difficult, requiring them to leave behind so much they had come by so hard.

Like those early Saints, we are called upon to transfer our allegiance to new leaders, even while we mourn the passing of the old ones. We should be used to this, I suppose. Even without the intervention of death, our bishops, Sunday School teachers and visiting teachers come and go with predictable regularity, like children playing musical chairs. Then the music stops and someone has to leave the circle. Last year the music stopped on President Hinckley.

Both death and the rotations of Church service require us to accept change and let go, but they also give us at least two sweet opportunities. First is the opportunity to gain a witness from God of the truthfulness and vitality of this work. I can tell you the precise moment when I received such a witness for each prophet of my lifetime. The first time I heard someone pray for President Monson as the president of the Church I felt the spirit confirming his appointment. I am grateful to remember that this is the Church of the Living God, the one who speaks to His people today.

A second opportunity, even more important, is the reminder that our allegiance is not to a man, even as great a man as a prophet of God. Our allegiance is to the Savior. The One who came back from death, and who promises us that death will not be the end of us either. That is a vital reminder. The Saints didn’t cross the plains because of Joseph, or Brigham. They crossed the plains because of their testimony of Jesus Christ. We still live out that legacy.

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The musical number for my ward’s Sacrament Meeting this week was performed by an eleven-year-old girl and her older brother, recently returned from his mission. They sang “Be Still My Soul”, and sung with such purity and sweetness that it took our collective breath away. The sister began, her tone sweet and calm, her pitch flawless. Her brother added a rich baritone that neither overpowered nor faltered. As they sang the Spirit washed over us all with a holy influence – peaceful, pure.

After the meeting I wanted to ask the girl if she took voice lessons, and if not to encourage her to get them if her parents could afford it. Then I wondered how this might sound to an eleven-year-old. Would she think I was suggesting lessons because her voice was not very good, the way we suggest people get lessons to learn a language they can’t speak or to prepare for a test they don’t expect to do well on? Or would she have the maturity and experience to take such a suggestion as a compliment, a statement of my confidence in her talent and potential?

Which got me wondering: Does God run the same risk when He undertakes our spiritual training – the risk that we will see His tutoring hand in our lives as a sign that He thinks we are deficient, not a sign of His confidence in our spiritual talent and potential? When He invites me to the hard lessons of disease or disaster, failure or loss, I too often assume (as I worried my young musician friend would) that His offer of “lessons” means that I am deficient, unprepared, and not expected to do well – when perhaps the “music” I’ve been handed is simply to help me develop my truest voice, even if the score is unfamiliar or out of my current range.

Of course, an eleven-year-old is unlikely to reach her mature musical potential without practice, guidance, and difficult songs to master. Lessons will benefit her in that pursuit, as they will benefit me in my quest for spiritual maturity. God has paid the full price to assure lessons for everyone, honed to develop our spiritual talents and gifts and not just to correct the deficiencies we more readily see. I suppose He delights to see what music we will make, and even to sing with us, adding His rich baritone – neither faltering nor overpowering – to our song.