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It’s never easy to say goodbye. At least that’s the way I feel about it.

Did you ever move from the neighborhood of your childhood, or the neighborhood of your season of joy and pleasant days?

Did you ever have a friend who was like a sister, even a twin, move away from you?

Did you ever feel yourself losing control in a room at the MTC as your first son or daughter to serve a mission (or your parents) pulled gently away from your hugs and your tears?

Did you ever have mixed feelings when a son or daughter married and a new family began, and they really did leave father and mother?

Have you ever been betrayed such that goodbye has been so hard, even maybe mixed with bitterness and a sense of deep loss? Has it ever hurt, at any time in your life, to have a dear pet finish their time with you?

Have you ever struggled to say goodbye to a particular season of your life, like the season when everything "worked" pretty well (i.e., your health was good)?

Have you ever watched a loved one slip away through the thin veil to the next part of eternity?

How do YOU handle goodbyes? How have YOU made it through such tender and often painful experiences?

Does prayer help? Can you feel His and Their comfort and peace?

Does it help when you cry, even if you’re all by yourself?

Are the hymns a source of sweet consolation?

How about going in or even near a Temple? Does that help?

If you have someone you trust whom you can talk to, dies it bring solace and comfort?

Do memories help? Or do they sometimes just remind you of that which won’t be part of your relationship from now on?

Have you ever experienced the "Law of Compensation," where Heaven sweetly provides what you need in ever step of the process of saying goodbye?

Have your experiences brought to you a clear feeling of why the Holy Ghost has always been called the Comforter? Have you had times when you’ve realized how good He is with this assignment? Have you been able to identify some specific things which have brought healing?

Can you think of lessons you’ve learned as you’ve faced the "time to say goodbye" (there’s a song with that phrase that really, really tips me over....)? Have you become more compassionate, more aware, more gentle and kind with others because you’ve said your own goodbyes?

Yesterday, on Jesus’s birthday, our sweet, fun, wonderful Mother was admitted to Hospice care — to the skill and compassion of those who’ve attended so many, many goodbyes.

I’m not sure I know how to say goodbye.

But I know what Easter means. And the Atonement. And the great Plan of Happiness. And the phrase that "God is love." And the sweet reality of having a Savior.

laura said...

April 07, 2009

Saying goodbye
It's never easy. I have to take comfort in the fact that many recent Conference talks have mentioned the loss of loved ones. I don't recall it being discussed as much as it has been in the last few years. When my father died, I was ok with it. I was prepared and knew it was coming. When my mother died, my feelings are all over the place and I'm still trying to work them out. A couple weeks ago, a dear friend of mine passed away and what came to my mind that day was "Sunday will come." (october 2006 conference) I'm sorry you're having to go through this, but it will be ok. OH! and yes to the above questions.

Pamela said...

April 10, 2009

heart petals
Your spirit is sure how to do things. It's the earthly body that holds us back. And yes, I have experienced all you describe above, and am still going through much of it. I have turned to your talks during a lot of this for me, because you always lift me up. Thankyou for that. I wish I was able to do the same for you. Just know that there are many who love you and are sorry for your heartbreak, and please carry our thoughts and prayers with you for whatever comfort that may bring. Pam

Mary said...

April 10, 2009

It is a Moment of Time
Mary Ellen, saying good-bye is never easy. Growing up, leaving home and becoming a military wife. All those wonderful friends and places you leave behind. Having your children leave one by one as they start their futures. Saying good-bye to your Mother and Father, Grandparents and others you have loved as they leave you behind. This is what I have learned: It is a moment of time I am an only child and my parents are gone. My memories are my own now of my childhood there is no one to say, "Remember when. . .?" to. So, this is my advice to you, buy a beautiful journal and pen. Not one of those Bic pens but a beautiful pen. Keep that journal close to you and whenever a sweet memory of something you have of your Mother comes to your mind write it down. If it is something that makes you laugh share it with her too! Tell her you love her and whatever else you may have in your heart that needs to be said. Then when you are old you will have this journal to look back on and read and be able to re-live those moments in time. Oh, and Mary Ellen, it isn't just for the warm cozy memories but even the ones where you said, "I will never do _____ when I grow up!" Then you find yourself doing the exact same thing! LOL!!! Be good to yourself and look at different moments in time as being seperate chapters of a very good book to read. . .after all, it is, it is what made you to be you. ((((gentle)))) From another Mary Ellen

Joi said...

April 12, 2009

Joi
Sister Edmonds -- You touched several tender places today as you took me on a memorial walk thru my life time's goodbyes. Several tender losses have been mine to experience. Easter is a particularly tough time for me as it was the eve of Easter that I lost a child, but yes, Easter brings the sweet reminder of the Savior and His atonement. How grateful I am that he took my pains into the garden for me. I am learning to let the goodbyes are become a 'so long.' I am learning to not let it hurt, but allow it to strengthen my faith and knowledge in the Plan of Salvation and in the eternal life to come.

Maryhelen said...

April 13, 2009

Grateful to Get To Say Goodbye
I said goodbye, at the side of a casket, to my mother whose life had ended suddenly and unexpectedly. I was 23. Saying my good-byes at the side of her casket at her viewing four days later was NOT how I had things planned. After all, I'd always thought that parents were supposed to get really really old and pass peacefully and even a bit expectedly. Since my mom's sudden death I've lost a few other family members. One was a cousin who was diagnosed with advanced staged cancer ~ she lived just three weeks after her diagnosis. While that could be considered "sudden", getting to talk with her one last time, remembering some of the things we'd done when we were kids, was so wonderful, right along with being hard. Losing her wasn't easy but the opportunity to say good bye was a treasure. I don't know if the "how" is the most important part to saying goodbye. The peace that comes from being aware and offering words of love and affection go so far in bringing comfort amid the grief that comes from preparing to lose someone you love. I know that no matter the circumstances, losing the one who gave you life is an adjustment. Living in the world for the first time where all of the sudden she isn't takes time to get used to. My condolences to you, MEE, and your family!

Beverly said...

April 15, 2009

Music helps ease the heart
Song by Deanna Edwards helped me through Mom's long battle with Alzheimer and now with my Father. The Lord will bless you. Deanna has many other song that lift up the grieving soul. Teach Me To Die Sunlight filters through my window Falling from the sky. Time slips like a silent stranger, Softly passing by. Life goes on in busy circles Leaving me behind. Memories. like portraits, Fill the attic of my mind. I know it isn't easy Seeing me this way, It hurts to watch me Lying here day after day. Trade your fear of parting For the faith that knows no pain. Don't be afraid to say goodbye. I know we'll meet again! Teach me to die. Hold on to my hand. I have so many questions, Things I don't understand. Teach me to die. Give all you can give. If you'll teach me of dying I will teach you to live. Bless you for your outlook and love of life.

cary said...

April 16, 2009


I lost my husband of 16 years in November 2008. I can tell you that I have never felt an outpouring of spirit from the Holy Ghost as I have since then. I have bad days, but prayer helps. I love that I can lay my burdens at the feet of the Lord and he cares enough to take his portion. Something that you said to me, MaryEllen, at the TOFW in Denver has helped too: You explained that you were getting ready to go through this with your mother, but you said. " He cries for you and misses you too." (talking of my husband) That has given me a measure of comfort in that I can tell my 5 children that daddy misses them too, but is being one of our ministering angels to ensure that we will all make it through this mortal probation to be an eternal family together.

Annie said...

April 28, 2009


Thank you so much for this. My grandma is teetering on the brink of death, and it is such an emotional roller-coaster. I'm grateful for my knowledge of eternal life, and the comfort of the Holy Ghost.

Laura said...

May 13, 2009

remembering
SO! I was listening to you on my TOFW DVD this last weekend. I was thinking more about your blog/devotional, and I was wondering how you were doing. I was spending time with my mother who has been struggling with some health issues and remembering your thoughts here. I was thinking how hard it will be for me to say goodbye to her when her time on this earth is complete. I take solace in reading the scripture in John (the really long one? ;) where it says, "Jesus Wept." I think of it nearly every time I cry over something. I think how silly I must look to show such emotion. But even Jesus who was perfect, wept. So I remember it must be o.k. And if Christ were with me, I think he would have a tear in his eye as well. I think knowing all, Christ must know how painful this life is for us sometimes and weeps knowing how much pain we feel. I don't know about you, but remembering that? Brings me comfort and peace from the Comforter. Thank you for posting this blog - it has helped me to remember again - for when the next goodbye in this life comes my way. hugs, laura a.k.a. indymom
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